Good Thing I Like Lemonade

Ever stop and wonder how exactly your life got to where it is today? Well I used to all the time until I started to realize that I actually know the answer. I guess I have all along. I wish sometimes that I could take everything back that I did wrong, however I hurt people, just take the negative away and start over. The thing with that is, taking away past negatives, will alter the present and future positives and you can NEVER start over. As hard of a life I feel like I have had, and how many struggles I have faced. I am not quite sure I would change anything. These struggles are what is making me trump today. These negatives are molding me into this amazing person that I had no idea that I could be. And never thought I would want to be. I am happy with myself for the most part, and I feel like that shows. I would be lying if I said I didn't still hurt sometimes, and have bad days. Or that sometimes I feel over whelmed with difficult situations and wish things were like they used to be. But all the good in me I feel like is starting to shine though. And I want everyone to see it. It isn't just that I dropped 65 pounds, although that helped significantly. I just feel like I am a more genuine person. More understanding, stronger, and willing to fight for the things I need and the things I want. I know what I want and what I am going after in my life. What I feel is best for myself and , most importantly, my children. The question is, are those things actually in the cards? Regardless of the answer to that question... I will never stop fighting, chasing, for everything I want in my children and my own life.