what it is

I have been thinking about a lot lately. Seeing all these people come together for a single family. Literally feeling and seeing all this love and support has been amazing. I was apart of it to be a good friend, but I had no idea this would soon become another family to me. I let my gard down in so many ways, opened myself so to many people. When normally I wouldn't have.
It's just made me think, about a lot. If something bad was to happen to me would I have the same outcome? And honestly I think not.( I know my immediate family would be there of course) I have been assessing my friendships with different people, and our relationships and they are just not all that strong. I barely even know who they actually are, and none of them know me at all.
I know someone might read this and get all upset. But it is, to me, true. Maybe I have a different definition of friendships than most people, I'm not sure.
All I know for sure is that I am so glad to be able to be there the best I can for the people I love. And I am so glad I have grown closer, and stronger towards certain people.
I feel my life, my friendships, and my outlooks changing...for the better, and in a direction I know will be better for not only myself but for my family.

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