11

11 days of feeling the most empty yet hurt I think I have ever felt. Its the weirdest combination I think I have ever heard of, let alone experienced. I wish things would go back to the way they were 12 days ago. But you cant look back, cause you can never go back. You have to make the best out of every situation and I thought I was doing that, but now I am not so sure. Its hard to tell sometimes I guess. I was raised on "forgive and forget" but how far can that go? what is the cutoff circumstances? It seems to be a blurred line between what is alright and not alright, and what is right and wrong. or maybe it is because people morals and values have changed SO much?
Things that were wrong 5 years ago, are no longer wrong. why? And you cant use the excuse "evolution" or "the world is a different place now"...if evolving into a more unmoral future is what everyone has in mind then I don't think I want to be a part of it. I hope I can raise my children to be wholesome, and upstanding individuals that are loving, kind, respectful, and independent.
anyways, I will just have to dig down deep in myself to decide what I want, what is best for myself and my children. What is right.