As the holidays are already here knocking on the door. I can not help but feel even worse than I already had. I am pathetic for even saying so. There are so many others that have a harder life than I do. If I am so thankful for what I have then why am I so depressed all the time? I guess that is a question that, for the time being, will go unanswered.
There have been some events in my life recently that have be really negative. And without going into any type of detail what so ever, it sucks. Taking a stand and choosing to teach my children the correct way people should treat each-other seemed to leave others feeling off balance. I will do what I feel is right. However, no matter what I do, no matter how right it is, its all in how it is perceived by others. I recently discovered that I do care way to much what other people think of me. This should not be the case at all. As long as I am setting a good example for my children, and doing right by them and myself, that should be all that matters.
I think the fact the people take the recent events so lightly is silly. For those of you who know about it think about it this way, What if that happened to Rory or Alicen? What if someone was treating them that way? I bet you would be pissed and want to kick that persons ass. I know I would cause I am their mother and want to protect them. And If Myles was acting that way? I would have a serious talk with him in hopes he would improve his moral. Just the fact that you can not picture someone doing something, does not mean they are not capable of doing it, or haven't already.
My life keeps sinking further and further down. and I am struggling to keep my head above water. Sometimes I'm scared.
I am trying the best I can, I love my children.
I think I am a wonderful mother and I just want to do right by my children.
I need some time to think long and hard about things
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